Okay, so periodically I get these crushlink mails. The first time, I was stupid enough to make guesses, but of course, it sends email to everyone you guess, regardless of whether you actually have a crush on them or not, etc. It's really just torture. Torture for me to guess, and torture for the people it gets sent to. Now, it's not like I get a million crushlink emails or anything, and I'm not egotistical enough to think that every one of the ones I get is someone with an actual crush on me (see above about guessing). I think that it would be nice to discover that someone has a crush on me, without having to jump through hoops. I'm not a horribly mean person, so if you happen to be the one who crushlinked me, just tell me. I promise I'll be nice, and you'll be doing me a favor, because the curiosity may damn well kill me.
7.16.2001
i showed you how to and you showed me paradise
So I had a really good conversation the other day about sexual turn-ons and stuff. This is a distilled and censored (read: not XXX-rated) free-form list:
snuggling: couch-snuggling, even really good hugs are way up there. hugs that last for a while for no real good reason, spooning.
kissing: shoulder smooches, neck kisses, kisses everywhere, my back, my tummy...small of the back, i have a tat right at the base of my spine. it's kind of a hint. deep kisses during sex. It bugs me when guys stop kissing cuz they're too busy concentrating or something. kisses behind my knees. sloppy kisses, but only at the right moment (usually drunken), also, teasing kisses. kissing from the collarbone all the way up under the chin then over the chin to the mouth.
other: guy-nipples. ear-bites. tickling and being silly. smell is really important. and i don't mean "down there" necessarily, i mean all over smell, and not necessarily cologne, though there's one that turns me on instantly, but a certain amount of human body odor, that slight whiff of that person. the finger sucking thing. taking it slow, or going fast and pausing sometimes, so it lasts forever and sometimes just being joined with the other. bellybuttons! going out after sex looking tousled and glowing and thinking that everyone can tell you just got laid. just plain making out for hours when you're both tired. covert butt-squeezes.
7.5.2001
happy 4th of July
Okay, I realize it's the 5th now. I went over to Chris and Kerry's and had yummy grilled veggie kabobs and grilled corn, followed by birthday cake since today is Chris's birthday. We then headed out to Old Settler's Park (in Round Rock) to watch the fireworks. I haven't gone to watch fireworks in probably about six years. The last time, I was in Boston, and we had gone to see friends who lived near the river (the Charles, I think) and the fireworks display was very fancy, with fireworks that made actual shapes in the sky like stars. The Round Rock display was definitely more low-key, though still beautiful. Chris said something about how the ones that made shapes were kind of disappointing since they seemed like a lot of effort for very little result, and I see his point. I think I'm so attached to the shaped ones because in old cartoons, when they show fireworks, they show them making American flags, and soldiers marching, and I never saw anything similar in real life except during that Boston show. Regardless, the show in RR was pretty, and it was nice to get outside for a bit.
When we left, we got out of the lot we were in really easily, but then got stuck at a dead stop forever, and I had to pee like a racehorse. We finally spotted a port-A-potty, and I made a break for it. Unfortunately, traffic sped up at that point, so Chris and Kerry ended up stopping and waiting for me. Doh. Maybe it's because I'm getting old, but that didn't embarrass me much at all.
Anyway, it's bedtime. I have an exam tomorrow morning and I'm not prepared. I'm feeling very nihilistic about it right now.
